long long time nvr update again, as i was very tired. my class should have had 3 tests on Wednesday ended only 1. anyway,i only prepared for that 1 so is perfectly alright for me. well, it had been another up and down emotional week. eventually cried again on friday, but this had seem to be part of my life so i had also used to it.Just that still feel very uncomfortable about it, i think this is normal, who will feel comfortable to keep crying almost everyday. anyway, i don't know is mine really crying, coz not much tears had produced, that feeling really suck--欲哭无泪--don't think anyone will know. i was wondering, why am i always feel so sleepy whenever my heart scatter once, am i using it to run away from the problems? is this a healthy solution???
however, there is something i felt glad about now, as i can treat people in school lightly, especially those that i dislike, whatever they say or do to me i can just simply ignore.but i just couldn't do this at home, they are my family, they should know me better than anyone else.yet even i pour out everything from my heart to them, they still don't understand me. so like what say, i will go and sleep and wake up as if nothing had happen no matter what time it is....
let say something nice, have fun on racial harmony celebration day.wore ms rohaya clothes and go around taking photos with friends. everyone was in crazy mood,no one bother to listen to what mr kor teach, except chesed.then we had 1 extra recess as a reward of being the top class for the flag day.hazel and i ate so much that shocked sherlyn and benedict. their expressions were so cute.chat with sherene,share secrets of each other,so sweet,at least that is what i think.at library played that bomb-man[till today i still don't know the exact name] with chesed and samson,stupid yongwang beside me made so much noise.always "die" first partially thanks to him.assembly was rather boring, i joined e1 to the assembly, ms chong was shaking her head when she saw me not with my own class.[so sorry,but i just want to try something different].back in class,ms rohaya sabotage me. so embarrassing!!!but still everyone in class have fun, so just take it easily, is just a joke.
that is all i can write for today. had a very meaningful sentence to be recorded--知足的人是在挫折中寻找希望，而不满的人是在成功中寻找失败--this is so real...
a small conclude for myself,i had manage to control my emotional toward outsiders much better.even my admirer towards him,just hope that it will not become what had happen for the previous case.we didn't even greet each other nowadays,really very sad,know each other for 6.5yrs but behave as if we are strangers....sighhhh....wish that my family can understand me more,so do i,coz i know that problems will only be there when both parties in fault,i will work even harder to control myself,pls give me more times, and we shall work together....prayyyyyyyyyyyyyy......
5 more days to the investiture!!!!horray!!! Everything had finally come to an end, nightmare is going to be over, can feel that light had start to shine on my path again...if only all my paths can be lighten up like this path.......
however, there is something i felt glad about now, as i can treat people in school lightly, especially those that i dislike, whatever they say or do to me i can just simply ignore.but i just couldn't do this at home, they are my family, they should know me better than anyone else.yet even i pour out everything from my heart to them, they still don't understand me. so like what say, i will go and sleep and wake up as if nothing had happen no matter what time it is....
let say something nice, have fun on racial harmony celebration day.wore ms rohaya clothes and go around taking photos with friends. everyone was in crazy mood,no one bother to listen to what mr kor teach, except chesed.then we had 1 extra recess as a reward of being the top class for the flag day.hazel and i ate so much that shocked sherlyn and benedict. their expressions were so cute.chat with sherene,share secrets of each other,so sweet,at least that is what i think.at library played that bomb-man[till today i still don't know the exact name] with chesed and samson,stupid yongwang beside me made so much noise.always "die" first partially thanks to him.assembly was rather boring, i joined e1 to the assembly, ms chong was shaking her head when she saw me not with my own class.[so sorry,but i just want to try something different].back in class,ms rohaya sabotage me. so embarrassing!!!but still everyone in class have fun, so just take it easily, is just a joke.
that is all i can write for today. had a very meaningful sentence to be recorded--知足的人是在挫折中寻找希望，而不满的人是在成功中寻找失败--this is so real...
a small conclude for myself,i had manage to control my emotional toward outsiders much better.even my admirer towards him,just hope that it will not become what had happen for the previous case.we didn't even greet each other nowadays,really very sad,know each other for 6.5yrs but behave as if we are strangers....sighhhh....wish that my family can understand me more,so do i,coz i know that problems will only be there when both parties in fault,i will work even harder to control myself,pls give me more times, and we shall work together....prayyyyyyyyyyyyyy......
5 more days to the investiture!!!!horray!!! Everything had finally come to an end, nightmare is going to be over, can feel that light had start to shine on my path again...if only all my paths can be lighten up like this path.......
