well,everyone is excite over the results of 'O' lvl. as usual some was happy while some are disappointed with themself. i'm glad tt i passed everything especially english and physics.although i didn't score well compared to many of them,but still felt consoled tt my grades eligible for some JC too. And i somehow really believe tt u will get what u want when u have a strong believe tt u can achieve. I had aim for business courses which cut off point average around 15,hence i told myself i must achieve 15 or less and i did...i gt 15 for my L1R4....quite unbelievable yet is true...

however,i felt lonely even thought i score what i want...dear blame me tt why i slept in class for all the physics lessons yet can pass...my mum show no reaction abt i passed all subjects which in fact i do much btr den i sis did...i nvr ask my dad as i knew nth good comes out of his mouth...my sis say good for me but i can't felt a bit of sincere congra from her...i does recieve lots of concern and congras from many others,but i still feel blank,i just dun feel any sincere--so sorry mayb some really does it's my fault,the problems lie on i'm aware...

today is my shop AGM[annually general meeting],although i'm a part-time worker but i was invited too.the venus was at intercontinental singapore which next to bugis junction.rather fun but tt's lots of things i dun understand.thoughout many of them mention abt accepting others weakness and only look at their strengths;have to be thankful to everything around despite whether it is good or bad....etc...maybe i'm just too young and immature to understand and achieve tt level of sane-ness...

i'm in a confuse state, am i too simple-minded tt happy with my these results which many pax think tt is lousy as i can do btr?i'm in a confuse state after hearing all the sane stuff,am i really too petty and stubborn and heartless towards ppl as i can as most forgive but nvr forget?i'm in a confuse state, i know i shld lives for myself,i know,I KNOW MANY MANY THINGS,but why can't my heart act with what my mind understand???

to be honest many ppl know they passed their exams and knock off the idea of die,but somehow after knowing my result,i appears to be happy but deep in my heart again....i'm so lonely tt i wonder why am i still standing on the earth...AGAIN no one can ans till i figure it out myself...

ps:in case anyone worries,i won't commit sucide yet and will survive for the sake of survive.even thought i'm empty inside out,i will still be cheerful in front of u guys make sure no one will feel uncomfortable with me...pls dun ask me any qns when i had enough from myself...thanks lots...