OMAN!! I have been staying in school till at least 5pm for the past week, and i going to stay in school till at least 7pm for the last 2days of Y1S2...Bloody hell Sian lar...

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I had cleared Sharepoint designer group project on Tuesday. I wouldn't say it is a good 1, but within our class, I think my group can consider as Number 2...the first is Jen group lor...BUT after I saw Serene Zhimin their project work...I really think my SUCK!! However I can't say it out cause no matter what Naiying and I really put in 100% effort into it...we got the same belief "Do the best we can, even if we failed, we will not having any regrets!"

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Staying late till midnight is already nothing special le, but last saturaday till monday I kept having a same dream...I dreamt that I forgot about the wushu training on wednesday and I didn't bring my uniform, YET I'm damn happy cause I can skip training...I dare say it is a NIGHTMARE for me...how can i have such a thinking even in my dream leh?

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Today was the training, well I am trying to bare with my ankle pain each and every session now...I can't open my mouth to say I'm pain cause say out also useless, as the pain going to be there for long....What coach can ask me to do is just "Go sit down and rest!?" if I going to do that there, why should I pay $40 and spend my time in school...I will rather stay at home and study liao lar...

Yes, I think I'm really tired...In the past I kept saying I am confuse but I always mange to get it out...Now that I don't feel confuse but actually so confuse? See! I don't even know what i wanna express...All I know is I getting quieter and I wanna to be Low profile now, since i already did my job as a BRIDGE between juniors and seniors...their ice already break about 70% and the 30% depend on their own fate liao la...I can concentrate on my own routine le...

I wonder why everytime when practice routine individually, I hardly received any comment or pointers from coach or seniors other than asking me to lower my ma bu and gong bu...Did I do too fast that they didn't notice? Or am I SO BAD THAT they give up on telling me my mistakes? OR I really too good liao? I guess is the second option is the MOST likely answer...=(

Finally today GY coach brief the juniors on the NDP performance, I shall not elaborate much here since I 100% not going to participate..CCA points for the event cant be more den 4, but what i going to sacrify will be results, health, family time, friends time and the other CCA opportunity....Is it worthy to join? I think that answer is obvious to me...

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Hopefully later my group will get to present the persuasive speech, really don't wish to do it on the last day of the school...I going to have another long day on Friday due to the handover session...I promised my dad I will learn from my secondary school mistake, I will never land myself into the status where I cant pull myself out from all the troublesome stuff...People might think and praise I'm good? but who is speaking of the true I will never know...All I can do is to judge and believe myself, as no one should know me better than I do...

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Yup..Ending here, Jennilala going to give me moring call soon...I better go pack my stuff and sleep le...Goodnight dairy...

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