Today is a RELAX day..
No Project only training...
Training is COOL for me today!
Coz Healthy BOdy, Nothing else in mind other then routine!
Long long no like that le, really enjoy sia..
BUT i know I still sux in many way..
Dun care le! Emotion wise more impt now!
Birthday Celebration for May and June Babies!
Cake design choose by Corinne!
I Promise July Design I also Let the Babies choose K!
I think Today cake must be DAMN nice!
I think Today cake must be DAMN nice!
Coz Got "tiny friends" come visit our cake la..
Anyway Pictures of the Babies!
3 Juniors + 1 OLD Gal..Our May & June Babies!
the 4 of them been "FORCED" to make wish!
BLow Blow BLow! den MAKAN TIME!!!
HOME SWEET HOME
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Today we HAD fun with Eric Coach "darling" again!
The inner Look of his car!
Naiyu 'SHYLY' sit on his "darling"
Fengwei treat the car as HIS OWN!
RuiQi is trying out ALL the buttons SHE can see!
Eric Coach watching Ruiqi experiencing HIS DARLING!
I Think he must be praying hard "dun spoil my darling"
Although he say he no worries la!! hahas
Eric Coach complaining why play with his "darling" only
Then he suggested GY Coach car at the other end!
We dun dare to play la!
But RuiQi and Naiyu Got GO KPO wad is inside the car...
Heard that RuiQi leave some fingerprints on the car wor!! hahas
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END OF TODAY TRAINING!
FUN FUN LA!!!
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Long Long Post in front! All about fun and happy stuff!! Is all on the surface! Yeah.. it is just the surface! I wish I can push myself to go back to manual written diary! Where I can throw in all my thoughts..But I just can't, Words at the bottom will be small! Coz i Dunnid everyone to read, and i noe only real friends that concern of me will bother bah...No one bother also nvm!
It's unusual training this 2 wks, coz interacted with juniors and some seniors again! I really dun feel as comfortable to do this like the past, cause there are changes in me! Yes is solely my problem, I know! I knew right at the beginning is either i adapt to them Or sway away...NOW i'm swaying away. Was telling Serene juz now on the way home, my only concern now is to TRAIN hard for each wk and do well in routine..the unable to adapt kind of make me feel sick & tired and i think it does affect my passion rate! However no matter what I'll nt give up on wushu, cause afterall both are different thing that can't be put and weight tgt! Anyway glad That next wk back to normal can juz mix with ppl i feel comfort with! HORRAY!
Today i suggested to Mummy again about the matter of 'divorcing'...YES i suggested that AGAIN, i really can't stand the quarrel day after day! i tried to make myself feel numb about it! BUT I FAILED! seem like i'm a absolute failure in all areas now! Mummy had suffered more den anyone shld suffer in a lifetime, i know papa also nvr enjoy much..BUT they simply can't stand what each other doing and thinking, why torture each other by that stupid piece of paper! Initially thot this part hope Cat-jie will read, but somehow she was home early today and Mummy updated her le! Both of us had our private discussion again in our room..she say i'm too rush to suggested that now! She's right in her way..And i agreed that the right time not here yet! But Cat-Jie if u are reading this! PLEASE trust me that i do feel as sour and as sad like what normal ppl shld feel but u shld also understand my reason! there's no one i can really go to now, if i really did something stupid and silly and harsh..FORGIVE ME, cause afterall i'm still young and lack of experience and i can't see any guiding light now! REALLY SORRY! I think u shld know what i going thru now...like wad i say, whatever is happening is already affecting my passion too...FORGIVE ME! GUIDE ME! will u?
I seriously feel like crying out loud now, but i can't...yeah my tears had come back, but i couldn't cry in front of mummy, i dun wish to cry to my soft toys, i hate crying in front of friends! there's no where and no way i can go to...i felt terrible! with everything on and on i can't understand y part of me gt an urge to go against my principle that i set since age of 4..I got to put a stop to that stupid scary ridiculous urge mindset! I can't take it anymore, PLEASE STOP EVERYTHING CAN? pls..................
sry if anyone really read this tiny words, dun find me as a scary person with totally different thinking personality inside and whatever i showing outside...tell me who dun bring a mask with them? if u really think i'm scary den leave me alone dun try to push ur luck on me! I can bite u till hell too...DUN TRY ME!
