Emotion is going up and DOWN, high and LOW! It's very obvious that one activity doesn't suite me and it will be ROLLER COASTER! I hate the unknown everywhere, yet can't avoid it.

Working at Mediacorp Travel Fiesta was kind of weird for me. Initially Aunty Nancy told me I'll be there to distribute flyers but it turn out to be "no much flyers" to distribute! Well so the first day I tried my best to recap all the knowledge that I lost touch for one and half year. It's really tougher to recap than learn new. Second day was slightly better as I'm more into the situation. Seeing the other companies employees way "snatch" customers I really can't take it, hence I start to grab anyone near our booth. Fun afterall as I'm being taken care like expected, and create quick bond with the new staff too. Just that from this event I really understand what it mean by "attitude determine altitude".

Monday is a resting day. Also is a crying day. Hate to admit that I cried, but I really see the need to express out somewhere. I see the biasness, I'm not being sensitive and I've no rights to say anything. Went to the watch-shop to ask the price to repair my dearest watch. Uncle immediate respond was not worthy, it cost $80+, must as well get a new piece. I was alone and they were somewhere nearby purchasing stuff. My heart ache like hell, it's been so long since I had such a feel. Walking back to meet them, my mind kept repeating "别来惹我！" I really don't wish to talk, I know I will appear to be rude and fierce when I don't smile. However I really can't force a smile like I always do. Why must he think in his weird way and accuse me for nothing?! I just feeling sad and aching in heart, I don't even have the rights to be sad?! I'm trying my best to hold back my tears, I rather cried along the busy TPY central pathway than in front of them! YET, they can't give me a break...and my aggressive tears just refuse to listen to my command!
I HATE IT!

Tueday was fine, at least fine till now. A bit crazy over Yo-yo, it helps to distract me here and there. Lots of different Lobang this holiday, surprise that my classmate call to introduce job. Well, same job appear 3times within 2years is really rare. I guess I'll be going down and take a look this time round. Now wondering what Hazel doing at Cambodia, "DEAR hope u having fun and enjoy ur grasshoppers meal!" Had discuss about our next gathering last friday, and now this statement to Sherlyn "Sry dun think I can make it this time round to overnight at NP!" as there will be an important wedding to attend.

Up and down, finished reading the book "All marketers are liars". All I can say is, I already don't know who to trust and share bottom heart stuff. After reading the book, I just feel that this world is really hopeless. Everyone living in lies, lies created by themselves, accept lies created by others and telling lies that aim to let everybody to believes. Maybe I'm just being too passive, but that's my only reflection for the book. Anyway knowledge in it I'll still absorb, cause that's life!

“好累好累。。。太多的事我仍然不明白。。。而如今也不想去明白了。。。。只想告诉朋友们，《善有善报，恶有恶报，不是不报，时机未到》 在21世纪就如同童话故事，纯粹用来骗小孩。。。千万别相信！”