WHY?! WHY?! WHY?!

I can't take it, but I've to. I thought I already know enough of the past, I thought that's the worst history I need to face and I'm coping with it. However, that's not the case! NEVER!!! How could they?! How could they kept repeating the past over and over again yet fast forward away that portion?! Why no one let me know about it earlier? Why do they allow me to hurt her cause of my ignorance?! Why let me have more guilty and regret in my life and is not because of what I had committed?! Why does the other SHE wanna scold me with the hint of this event? SHE simply don't care about how I going to feel and the curious that grow in me! If she had never hint me that, I will not try to find out and I'll not be typing all these questions that I will never get answer in this bloody blog! REALLY, this is enough! Please, PLEASE stop letting me heard any hint or know anymore fact! Although none can beat the one that I just know!

I'll never repeat her mistake! NEVER IN THIS LIFE! If I'm her, I will not last till now...
I can't do anything to heal the regret, all I can do is to say "sorry"! What a lousy word in this world that only speak out of coward mouth and not knowing how to handle situation! And I had never failed to become that COWARD!!!!!!!


ps: I'm here because of all the mistakes...I've been born to the earth full of MISTAKES!!! Someone else should be here and not me....