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Yes...Thanks my darling ankles for only start to acting up the pain IMMEDIATELY after i done with it...
Silent tears burst out, I sit on the floor unable to stand up...
Thanks Junyuan for tt warm huggy...
And Weichong fast reaction once i step out the grading area telling me my 功架 are very high...
Also for the beautiful number I got "48" in chinese indirect prononuce ="死吧"
I telling liping let's do a slow and steady beautiful de...end up I'm rushing through the whole thing...
Coz after 弹腿4路 my ankle already giving signal of falling, which make me forget to jump at the 8路...
All i can do is to end it fast, praying hard i wun lost my balance at 功力拳...
I never pause for any 定点at all...I cant see which direction I'm facing...
I only know I got to finish and stepped out soon without letting 师傅 seeing any anxious or pain on my face...
And also praying hard Eric coach wun spot me frowning more and more whenever I made mistakes again and again....
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What the Shit...aiming for silver, get merit 就偷笑了pls...
WELL...next thing after grading is Club Crawl...
Crossing fingers counting down...hoping this event get over soon...
Although it mean school going to start...i think i prefer studying den doing all this...
My sms is bursting, calling is so MUCH!!
Doing so much, not sure how everything gg to be...
All I know is I definitely gg to get scolding...
[this is referring to all my CCAs]
Well I think mummy is right..Serve myself right for being "能者多劳"
I really hate to say the next sentence but I know I gt to accept the fact...
"I GIVE UP OF TRYING SO HARD!! I'm WEAK!!!!! and NOTHING else...!!!"
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I'll just do it, but i doubt i'll be trying hard and focusing myself crazy anymore...
Coz it gonna mean nothing in the end..
I had lost all my determination and strong wills...
So at most I'll drive myself into IMH if I go on hard...
Got to protect myself, I think that's the only thing i can't give up from attempting in my life...
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ps: Running over a road will coz my ankle to b in great pain...is all this worthy when no result is shown?
"爱你爱得好累，爱你爱得遍体鳞伤。。。结局是如何我根本没有把握，这一切真的值得吗？？"
Labels: Reflections
