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Friday, June 19, 2009

人生很奇怪！
总有失望，沮丧，难过时。。
但也不忘期待，兴奋，欢乐的时光！

失望是你最信赖的人给你的;
沮丧是你最亲进的人给你的；
难过是你自己看不开时给自己的。。。

期待是看不到却能给你力量的东西；
兴奋是当你不知道什么事，什么人将走过你人生的片段而产生的；
欢乐的时光，往往在没注意到的情况下出现。。。也会瞬间的消失！！！

我想我以后的失望之会是自己造成的，因为我不再信赖任何人！
沮丧将不会再出现，因为我想我已经在那深渊的最底处。。。
难过的感觉我想我也逐渐麻木了。。。

期待应该从没在我生命中出现过，因为周遭的一切是那么牢牢地站着。。根本不需要我去幻想！兴奋时什么，对我而言有没有一件事或一个人能改变这一切。。。如果有哪我就可能会兴奋，但我想除非是奇迹降临吧！
欢乐的时光，只能回忆童年时那段天真的岁月。。。

Labels: Reflections

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Suppose to revise MM now, since i skipped training
But now tagging for 3 gu and chatting with cihui...
So blogging too lor..
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Ytd i mention abt can i afford to?

Come to think? I cant afford to miss training BUT the more i cant afford to put my results at risk...

I know what's in my mind, what's my most fear stuffs...

Finally NOW i think i wun have such confusing qns between this 2 things anymore...

As i got my answer le...

Project for today...consider fine!

Jiayou and work forward...

As expected for some thing so coping well...

Giving myself small cheers k...

A bit emo now, i noe my topic is bored to majority..dun like it juz leave bah...

First time in close contact with the event of death is when i was in primary 1...

Blur impression, all i know is everyone cry (especially ahma...)

Second time, grandpa past away...right before my O lvl...

The shock, regret and sadness....mummy response and the unprepared at all circumstances...

I'll nvr forget...

This year...the year of 2009

Seem to be a year of death...

People around me (close or far...so long i know la) is "migrating" 1 by 1

Most of it dun strike me directly, but it affect my friends and i can feel it too....

I hate the feeling...coz it simply remind me the past...

An hour ago, a phone rang...

Another death news send to us...this time is my mummy de 师姐...

Know my mummy for 40yrs and gt strong bonding de...

Recently juz went to visit her, she is so skinny so weak...

anyone who have heart will feel hurt to see that...

She is suffering alot, since young!

All kind of health problems and family matters...

A strong old lady i can say...

Initially i felt glad for her that she finally got her relieve from all these torture...

But the next moment i heard that her 骨灰 was been threw into the sea,

and one of her daughter actually didn't bother to attend her wake (due to some conflict)

I'm so stunned and feel sad sad for her...

After working and trying so hard the whole life, this is what she get...

Is this really what life is all about?

Anw, "老姨，走好。。。" R.I.P

My mummy i noe she quite sad sad now,

All i can do is tell her..thanks goodness we did visit and get to chat chat with her not long ago...

To both party, no one shall have any regrets (wun be like grandpa like tt)

Learning to let go is really hard...but i'm still trying!

But in the meanwhile...can i request King of Hell pls stop taking away anyone I'll know in this yr le...

Is sad to see people sad, the whole atmosphere is juz so wrong la...

PLEASEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Labels: Reflections

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Cihui complain say i force her blog...but i juz think since she is the one tt took this pic she shld b the first to post it sia...

According to Cihui this 2 CHINA GIRL (can u see, can right?)sitted at the MRT floor during the peak hour 6pm from YCK- CCK ...RIGHT IN FRONT OF ONE OF THE DOOR!!

highlight a bit RIGHT IN FRONT....

Well, I dunno is they juz came to Singapore den still having some CULTURE SHOCK..

or They simply love our citizens butts in terms of "look" and "smell"

Hope such people will reflect their selfishness, and change...

This is SINGAPORE! Do 入乡随俗, be more considerate, dun do those funny things...

IF NOT, pls go back to where u are from...THANKS SO MUCH!!!

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NOW! Dedicating to CK bro...

Bro dun be too stress out, dun be too angry with those MORONS!

coz there are too many of such kind people in these world...

Smile @ these people coz they make u look SMARTER...

AND nurture more responsibility in u...

Anw, glad that the web is gd for u...Sry I cant help much la...

Jiayou la

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Back to my today life...

BAD! Early in the morning headache...feel so uncomfortable

Anytime I gg to have my second round of sicksick period now...

Try hard to stay strong be strong...

Mummy getting angry that i'm sleeping too much recently

But I hope she will understand, if I'm given a choice..i wun sleep so much...

I will do some others thing de....

Morning Cihui waited for me at the control station for 30mins

Thanks Thanks

However, something really BAD happen once we reach sch...

Shld I say Lucky i suggest to walk the shortcut...

IF NOT i cant imagine the consequences...

Reach school already abit heat heat, steps into lecture hall...

I think my temperature raise to at least 38 and above..

Almos fainted la...Cihui is nth better...

However, to CIHUI...the part i dedicate to CK bro also applies on us k...

u get wad i mean la...

Nice time at Gloria Jean's...

Then good lecture...and nice chat chat with GK Lee...

Now, time for MM revision...

While my mind still struggling with whether to go training tmr...

if i skip skip..mean i gg to miss 2wks (coz of campus run)

Can I afford that? I really dunno...

Hope my body dun give me negative signals la...

Pray Pray...

End here, Goodbye...

Labels: Reflections, Studies

Thanks Thanks

Friday, May 29, 2009

Today my post going to be SIMPLE!!
ALL i wanna say is THANKS

Thanks mummy for waking me up in the morning, if not I sure late for school...

Thanks the ICE-Kopi that kept me awake and last me till my ICA paper end....

Thanks myself for finally can answer question in tutorial finally....

Thanks goodness that the ICA paper isn't that tough, passing shouldn't be a problem...

Really happy cause I really didn't have the time to revise much...

Thanks Cihui for sharing and answering my gossipy question, I really enjoy the noon with u @ the south canteen...Happy to find someone really of the same kind as me =D

Thanks Sikai-bro for replying all my funny and weird msg today...counting down 50days =(

Thanks School for approving my bursuary application...$800 might seem little to others but it might really make a different in my life soon....

Thanks the lecturer of Biz Law for close one eyes upon seeing me and cihui sleep in ur lecture...I know you saw it cause I happen to eyes contacted with u...

Your lecture ain't that boring, just that we are too tired...hahas....

Thanks the lecturer for Marketing Management actually praised me cihui and huili as GOOD STUDENTs and encourage us that ICA next wk for us no problem...although u don't really know us sia....That's let the 3of us end school today with good good mood la...hahas...

Thanks MUMMY again for alway filling my stomach with stuff...today somehow really tired, napped after reach home, nice nice dinner...although it seem to be simple but I really loving it...

Thanks my ICT groupmates...All the best for tmr presentation...

WOW...actually can thanks and appreciate so many things in one day...must learn to appreciate more from today onwards...now going to revise on Biz.Fin ...pray hard as gd as my EFMA

today...hehes....

ps: WaPiang, some blogs really cannot go read liao..abit off sia =X

Labels: Reflections

new start

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Something is coming to an end...
New start of life...
Good or bad is unknown...
Old msn nick gonna be change...but will always be in my heart le =)

"Learn and understand the mistakes in order to make a progress"

I had tried to learn and understand...but it seem like no progressing...
All the best to my new start that I going to let myself have...

Labels: Reflections

Club crawl over!

Friday, April 24, 2009

Horray! Orientation is OVER!! Club Crawl is OVER!! Holiday is going to OVER!!!
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Alright..WTH i'm typing?
My mood CHANGED after club crawl over...
Learn alot...But somehow I think I'm better at being Honest...
I wun hide my mistake when i know i did it...
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Things are gg on...
But I guess everyone should just do a reflection and learn...
No use thinking and questioning too much since Club Crawl become a "past tense" le
If wanna recall, recall the fun part we have at the very last moment when HerChuan around...
Really Happy Happy la...
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De-Briefing...
Not as bad as SBM Orientation 2009..
As usual gt people cry...[Including me..hold back for the first time but nt the second time]
Nice chat with many ppl that i very long nvr sit down and chit with....
CHEERS FELLOWS...gals or boys, young or old...Smile all the way la...
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Look forward to orientation day...
Hope gt ppl really come...den everyone do a gd 1...
Break ice into pieces k...hahas...
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Alright stop here...in case i type out something i shouldn't...
And i really tired la...*yawnz* me dun wanna b old auntie =)

Labels: Reflections, wushu

Club crawl 2009

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Rewind rewind...What had happen past 2days...
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Tuesday Morning 7am sms my teammates rmb to bring belts and medals to sch...
sms coming in at 9+am...Real wake up at 10am den print stuff =X
11.50am reached school...breakfast-> soya bean milk
Chiong booth with fellow mates...
Thanks Weichong for all the helps...Chiawei for kept collecting all the bombs i throw out...Shiping for doing everything I nvr do...Corinne and Christian the Ms & Mr FAILED...[kept failing me for no reason!!]Yaoteck who can dun come down yet came and help out..
Thanks for all the juniors that came down...morning is kind of disorganised but at least noon gt more thing to do...From a very simple booth that cmi compared to silat till WA quite impressive la...
Lunch time is 4pm...go home at TPY buy curry puff...last food into tummy is 6pm...Nvr dinner...
So sorry to my tummy, u seriously gt a Bad owner...
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Wednesday morning...breakfast slightly better coz is Mac $2.50 meals
BUT! i didnt get to enjoy it, eat while walking....Once again sry to my tummy..u suffer again!
Chiong booth trying to get everything in place...
Thanks Jeremy for lending out his laptop...I dunnid to bring mine =)
But then tt stupid wire make me so confuse den no electric supply at all...Eugene like telling me SA getting technician down...=X so nid to WAIT!!
Same thing morning in a mess..But still THANKS all fellow mates for having initiative around...
Noon I went home to help mummy to buy fruits for 拜神 on friday and saturaday...
Missed the performance...I heard is abit messy but nvm tmr sure will be btr!!
Recruitment from wad i see is still consider 'nt bad'...Jiayou for tmr...
Night training is kind of slack...coz GY coach say we can only learn after we gt our result =X
But somehow my ankle still cant take it...
First time used a knee guard for left leg and ankle guards for both legs....
Haojun asked me gt so serious mah...I only can stare at him =X
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Well surprisingly received a "praised" phone call when i expecting a "scolding" phone call
I gonna share it with my fellow booth mates coz someone owed us A DRINK!!!
However that call ended sacastically...
Anyway i dunno wad the real reason behind coz I nvr receive any comment from other yet...
But if u wan me to be serious den i shall be that way FOR U...
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I'm quite confuse now...Which extreme shld i approach? the old liyan that sealed or the new liyan that i haven explored fully?
I really dunno myself now...in the past angry = angry...now angry = no big deal?
somehow my 赤子之心 is happening again...almost do 1 gd deed per day recently...
Just who and wad i'm sia???
All the best for tmr club crawl and I gg to have a REAL REST before sch start for me... ^.^

Labels: Reflections, wushu

First grading

Sunday, April 19, 2009

GRADING IS OVER!!!
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Yes...Thanks my darling ankles for only start to acting up the pain IMMEDIATELY after i done with it...
Silent tears burst out, I sit on the floor unable to stand up...
Thanks Junyuan for tt warm huggy...
And Weichong fast reaction once i step out the grading area telling me my 功架 are very high...
Also for the beautiful number I got "48" in chinese indirect prononuce ="死吧"
I telling liping let's do a slow and steady beautiful de...end up I'm rushing through the whole thing...
Coz after 弹腿4路 my ankle already giving signal of falling, which make me forget to jump at the 8路...
All i can do is to end it fast, praying hard i wun lost my balance at 功力拳...
I never pause for any 定点at all...I cant see which direction I'm facing...
I only know I got to finish and stepped out soon without letting 师傅 seeing any anxious or pain on my face...
And also praying hard Eric coach wun spot me frowning more and more whenever I made mistakes again and again....
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What the Shit...aiming for silver, get merit 就偷笑了pls...
WELL...next thing after grading is Club Crawl...
Crossing fingers counting down...hoping this event get over soon...
Although it mean school going to start...i think i prefer studying den doing all this...
My sms is bursting, calling is so MUCH!!
Doing so much, not sure how everything gg to be...
All I know is I definitely gg to get scolding...
[this is referring to all my CCAs]
Well I think mummy is right..Serve myself right for being "能者多劳"
I really hate to say the next sentence but I know I gt to accept the fact...
"I GIVE UP OF TRYING SO HARD!! I'm WEAK!!!!! and NOTHING else...!!!"
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I'll just do it, but i doubt i'll be trying hard and focusing myself crazy anymore...
Coz it gonna mean nothing in the end..
I had lost all my determination and strong wills...
So at most I'll drive myself into IMH if I go on hard...
Got to protect myself, I think that's the only thing i can't give up from attempting in my life...
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ps: Running over a road will coz my ankle to b in great pain...is all this worthy when no result is shown?

"爱你爱得好累，爱你爱得遍体鳞伤。。。结局是如何我根本没有把握，这一切真的值得吗？？"

Labels: Reflections

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I'm so happy..Coz just now I saw Phyllis when I go buy things...
OMG! She seem to be so much more thinner [altho she say i look thinner also =X]
Now, she care quite a lot abt appearance now..
And she say that I like getting more and more Tomboy [wad a GOOD comment]
I think more and more people thinking I'm a lesbian?!
Anyway, Just to update Friends that been asking me about Phyllis
"PHYLLIS IS DOING FINE!! AND SHE IS CURRENTLY ENJOYING HER HOLIDAY!!!"
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Alright, I think I got time to do some reflection of my second job now... (Singtel Mio Promoter under Henca International Agency)
Things I learn:

1) Can be friendly but must show firm and fierce from time to time...

2) Letting go...[i think i improve to level 3 now]

3) When working, dun treat it as work...Have fun and makes friends, life will be easier...

Things to be mention:

1) Sadly, till my last day of work...none of the JP staff know my name...

Coz all know me as "Cat de sis" ... den funny names like "kitten" and "螳螂" appears =X

2) Study, Cert, Diploma, Testimonial, Passion...is important...

As most of it we only given 1 chance to grab it in the whole life...once miss and tt's it...no repeat!

3) [is a secret...Only lei-meimei know the details..]

Sad Things:

1) MANY people that i met at work guess my age is 20yrs old and above =(

2) [i think 1) is enough for me to sad long long liao...]

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Hahas...Alright, longest post I had compare to the past few days...=P
Still praying hard for tmr, i know after tmr everything will be easy...Bless me...

Labels: Reflections

相通

Saturday, April 11, 2009

塞翁失马，焉知非福。。。
我因为想不通一些问题而感到迷惑。。。
迷惑着感觉似乎已经成为我的朋友。。。
“你”先让我又一次的受尽地狱般的过程。。。
但“你”接下来，又像是安排好一切似的，把我带出黑暗。。。
三个天真可爱的小朋友让我知道：与世无争就能活得没烦恼。。。
一个对信念有着深厚了解的阿姨对我解说世俗的一切，在一次的提醒我无论什么事都要以感恩之心去看待。。。
最后由一个曾经一再犯错，但如今以回头是岸的叔叔来开导我。。。指引我不要犯下跟他一样的错。。。
“你”是要让我更成熟吗？如果是，难道没有更好的办法吗？一定要经历一轮又一轮的折磨吗？
无论如何，我想我已经完成这一轮的训练。。。应该说一句“感恩了，期待下一次的历练”。
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gg back to work for the last 2days @ JP...my sis not gg to be there coz she gg to rest @ home with her MC...I gg to do my best, even if my luck still down and i gg to get another round of scolding by manager again, I'm not gg to cry again...I'll smile back coz i noe it is not my fault once i do my best...

Labels: Reflections

back to the square

Monday, April 6, 2009

This is my status now...
Wanna say something...but i dunno how to express...
Something gonna happen...Everything gonna change...
I should have know it will happen right at the beginning..
But, I didn't dare to think or face it...
As time getting closer...I know I can't avoid anymore...
Everything will be just like the past...
All I can do is to accept it with a better preparation compare to the last round...
I lost my sense of direction coz no matter how hard I run forward...
By end of the day, I'll be bouncing back to the same starting point...
I can never be the final winner of any race...
Tired........Sick...........Weak........I hate them, but I'm having them in me...
So "funny"..
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"Like a Fish out of Water. Good is not Actually Good. Forget What You Hope to do."

Is Just Like What I Expected...But I Think It's Worse than What I Thought....

Labels: Reflections

Resign le!!

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Hahas...I find this tweety look cute and the words are so true...

I guess everyone who might have bad temper as me can read thru and do some reflection too...

I'm so happy today...Coz I Gonna regain my freedom after 12 April...

Say regain freedom actually is slightly more free hours [coz I go request quit work juz now le!!]

1 more wk..End of 1month work as a promoter...

By then I'll write a LONG reflection for that...

huhu..gg back to watch 射雕英雄传 again...

Stretching!!! Practice!!! In schedule too....=P

Labels: Reflections, work

feel like crying...

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Life seems to be in the bad luck status for this few days...First is get choked by fish bone, and today, i found someone thumbdrive didn't expect i'll misplace my own thumbdrive...

I feel so sad about missing tt...BUT somehow i got a strong feeling that it will be found...HOWEVER, i just feel unsecure and weird...

Like what i say previously, so many things happening around me...the feeling that i had is just so weird...I tot i'll be totally lost and get back into serious depression like the past...

But i was wrong, somehow after each event happen...It seem to be like there are many people beside me...and i somehow get stronger too??

On the other hand, i feel like there is a "hole" somewhere...i guess it is due to the people around me is totally different from the past...just hope i'll get used to this circumstances soon...

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Bless me find back my thumbdrive tmr...Pray for ppl that are not feeling well to recover before CNY ^.^

Labels: my life, Reflections

Thought

Friday, January 9, 2009

"The only constant is the changes that always exists"

Yes, changes around me is like the fire crackers. *Boom*boom*BOOM* one after another...

History seem to be repeating again and again

I'm tire, I'm weak, I'm confuse, I'm weird, I'm depressed...

The choices are there for me to choose again

But this time, I'm sure of what i going to take and what to let go...

My little room in my heart is so small..

But it always packed and full and mess with all kinds of things...

It is so much for me to hold now..

I had just realised, things that i keeping are stuffs that others had dump it alway...

So now, I need to learn to throw away...

Just treat it as a SPRING CLEANING for the brand new 2009...

What happen in the past, is already a history.

What going to happen tomorrow is a mystery.

What is happening now is a gift, that's why it is known as present.

Very famous and common quote many people are using,

but it is just so RIGHT!

What had happened, we can't make any changes.

What going to happen, we can't predict.

What is happening now, we can only do our best .

Learning is never ending process.

Mistakes and regrets are something that got to be there in order for us to learn.

We got to remember and we need to look back.

Not to feel bad but to learn and avoid making the same mistakes again..

"Learn and Understand the mistakes in order to make a progress"

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I might be lost and confuse again..I don't know where my next step should be...But at least, I got a goal to attain..."Believe in yourself and nothing is impossible!!"

Labels: Reflections