But now tagging for 3 gu and chatting with cihui...
So blogging too lor..
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Ytd i mention abt can i afford to?
Come to think? I cant afford to miss training BUT the more i cant afford to put my results at risk...
I know what's in my mind, what's my most fear stuffs...
Finally NOW i think i wun have such confusing qns between this 2 things anymore...
As i got my answer le...
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Project for today...consider fine!
Jiayou and work forward...
As expected for some thing so coping well...
Giving myself small cheers k...
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A bit emo now, i noe my topic is bored to majority..dun like it juz leave bah...
First time in close contact with the event of death is when i was in primary 1...
Blur impression, all i know is everyone cry (especially ahma...)
Second time, grandpa past away...right before my O lvl...
The shock, regret and sadness....mummy response and the unprepared at all circumstances...
I'll nvr forget...
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This year...the year of 2009
Seem to be a year of death...
People around me (close or far...so long i know la) is "migrating" 1 by 1
Most of it dun strike me directly, but it affect my friends and i can feel it too....
I hate the feeling...coz it simply remind me the past...
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An hour ago, a phone rang...
Another death news send to us...this time is my mummy de 师姐...
Know my mummy for 40yrs and gt strong bonding de...
Recently juz went to visit her, she is so skinny so weak...
anyone who have heart will feel hurt to see that...
She is suffering alot, since young!
All kind of health problems and family matters...
A strong old lady i can say...
Initially i felt glad for her that she finally got her relieve from all these torture...
But the next moment i heard that her 骨灰 was been threw into the sea,
and one of her daughter actually didn't bother to attend her wake (due to some conflict)
I'm so stunned and feel sad sad for her...
After working and trying so hard the whole life, this is what she get...
Is this really what life is all about?
Anw, "老姨，走好。。。" R.I.P
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My mummy i noe she quite sad sad now,
All i can do is tell her..thanks goodness we did visit and get to chat chat with her not long ago...
To both party, no one shall have any regrets (wun be like grandpa like tt)
Learning to let go is really hard...but i'm still trying!
But in the meanwhile...can i request King of Hell pls stop taking away anyone I'll know in this yr le...
Is sad to see people sad, the whole atmosphere is juz so wrong la...
PLEASEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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